grrr

Well my job is sucking an unbelievable amount.. so im on the hunt once again.. You know what they say, you have to like what you are doing.. dont focus on pay. and they are soooo right. If you dread work every day its just depressing.. so i would much rather get paid a little less and like what im doing... so those are my words for today.. not too interesting but sometimes im not :)

a new day in the new year

So i've had a mind shift since my last entry.. I am not going to worry about everyone else's problems. They say the only person who will take care of you is you. And i am beginning to be a firm believer. I don't mean that I won't care, thats not in my nature.. but i need to stop worrying about things i can't change. My horoscope was quite fitting today.. something about quit hoarding feelings i cant do anything about.. stop holding onto old stuff.. so thats what im going to do. Just cut it all off.

What a start

A new year and a fresh start huh? Well things arent going as well as i had planned. I've never been one to talk about myself, i don't open up to people. I guess I never really understood why, but it clicked today. If you don't let people in you can't get hurt. If they leave you and you are already numb, then you don't have to cry. It's pretty simple and i just now got it. I guess it's better late than never to get to know yourself. So This will be my 24th year here.. And I am hoping from the bottoms of my feet that this year treats everyone well, after all i hear that odd years are the best. So we'll see.