Nutritionist....

I'm thinking of telling my nutritionist about my eating disorder. The funniest thing is that it's all in my chart.. I went to treatment in 2001, and my chart is about a foot thick with all the stuff I've had wrong. But, after treatment, I think everyone just thought I was "cured". Really, nobody really even asked me anything else about my eating disorder ever again. Maybe they thought bringing it up would bring it back? I don't know, but it baffles me that even my doctors never really brought it up. I guess I was ok with that for a long time, knowing that treatment didn't work for me pretty much at all. It was geared toward the "regular" eds.. not diabulimia whatsoever. And though I'm bulimic as well, they didn't address my diabetes at all and it was a huge part of my problem. Anyway... I'm really thinking of telling her, though I don't really know what it would do. I don't have insurance, and she can't cure me with a new meal plan. But at least I'll feel like I'm doing something to actively better myself. I don't want to lose my vision, a kidney, a foot... I wish I could just go to treatment again now that i'm ready, I really want to beat this before it beats me. But money is everything apparently. And I cannot stop it on my own, I have 14 years under my belt to prove that.